tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24878946987212820742024-03-14T01:22:02.964-07:00Self HelpCloverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17910275652273858169noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2487894698721282074.post-80378121662332211982020-09-07T15:30:00.001-07:002020-09-12T15:54:48.654-07:00Apple Pie Makes Things Better<p><span style="font-size: 11pt; white-space: pre-wrap;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjk3SPFK15r6SozsFpfjoFHh555GuP-5SdJ5aVaIhVZFgMt7d9iswuw13qoMGTGfZUwrCMDadL6ZgdRFi8uJIMFOmp0oyiBZhkLnZKVCo2-wHAAQfV6Zf-f74pngOVupeTIt0vwRw7Q-TYn/s2048/673A8023-BA2C-4D27-8EA6-102C3ABB9981.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="2048" height="500" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjk3SPFK15r6SozsFpfjoFHh555GuP-5SdJ5aVaIhVZFgMt7d9iswuw13qoMGTGfZUwrCMDadL6ZgdRFi8uJIMFOmp0oyiBZhkLnZKVCo2-wHAAQfV6Zf-f74pngOVupeTIt0vwRw7Q-TYn/w500-h500/673A8023-BA2C-4D27-8EA6-102C3ABB9981.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><br /><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span><p></p><p><span style="font-size: 11pt; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">I made an apple pie this week, which isn’t particularly earth shattering or anything. But it was satisfying in a hippie-earth-mamma kind of way to walk into my backyard, pick apples, and turn them into something delicious. I didn’t have a lot of faith in my pie baking abilities, so I decided to make it really pretty and take a lot of photos, just in case I needed to make the time spent worthwhile. </span></span></p><span id="docs-internal-guid-87c2b093-7fff-e601-57ce-b6aef7ff8572"><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">One of the things about the internet that makes me INSANE is when you find a recipe on someone’s blog, but you have to wade through two pages of blathering on before you get to the actual recipe. So without further ado…</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-weight: 700; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">Pie Crust</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">6 cups All Purpose Flour</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">3 cups chilled Butter</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">3 teaspoons salt</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">1 ½ cups ice water</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">½ teaspoon apple cider vinegar</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">Mix flour, butter, and salt with a pastry blender until the mixture resembles coarse crumbs. Add ice water and apple cider vinegar, mix until dough is smooth. Chill in the refrigerator for 1 hour.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">This is supposed to be enough dough to make three, two crust pies. But maybe my pie pan is just really big, because I only ever get two pies out of it.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">Roll it out on a floured surface to make your bottom crust. Good luck making a top crust. I mean, seriously. That is some kind of Martha Stewart wizardry right there. I always make something with cookie cutters because it seems a lot less complicated. If you can do lattice you are my hero. </span></span></p><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">My Grandma Ellie always brushed her top crust with egg whites and a little water to make it shiny. I also sprinkle sugar on top because I have a problem.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-weight: 700; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">Apple Pie Filling</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">6-8 cups of peeled, cored, chopped apples</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">½ cup sugar</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">½ cup brown sugar</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">2 tablespoons flour</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">1 teaspoon vanilla extract</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">1 tablespoon of cinnamon</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">1 teaspoon pumpkin pie spice</span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">Juice from half a lemon</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">Toss it all together. Put it in the pie and bake it at 375 for an hour.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><i>Mmmmkay...here are some things…</i></span></span></p><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><br /></span></span></p><ol style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><li dir="ltr" style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; list-style-type: decimal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><p dir="ltr" role="presentation" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">I should have cooked the apples a little first. They were a little too crunchy. It was still delicious, and I like the crunch. But my kids were like “the apples aren’t soft like applesauce.” </span></span></p></li><li dir="ltr" style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; list-style-type: decimal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><p dir="ltr" role="presentation" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">I put foil over the pie for the first 45 minutes while it baked and I’m glad I did because I am forever burning the edges of pies. </span></span></p></li><li dir="ltr" style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; list-style-type: decimal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><p dir="ltr" role="presentation" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Poppins;">If this was a berry pie I probably would have baked the bottom crust for about 8 minutes before putting the berries in. (Because soggy.)</span></span></p></li></ol><div><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><span style="font-size: 14.6667px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Poppins;"><span style="font-size: 14.6667px; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></span></div><br /></span>Cloverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17910275652273858169noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2487894698721282074.post-11659562565178964432020-09-03T15:21:00.002-07:002020-09-12T15:40:24.418-07:00My Dad's Obituary<p><span style="font-family: Raleway;">My Dad, Lou passed away on Tuesday, September 1st, 2020. </span></p><span id="docs-internal-guid-0dc702ec-7fff-7f1b-0059-9aecf1c78345"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4CCIGxDVTjgggmiPvbDC05w8QNUVYh3kr0RJ7eRNqKT7v3QiOYBpu_9m27N9eFNSX5GQKzAWop3L_eTiQhLETl0WRajgJNmrEX1_Mn5sH2cT6q5dV2-dOvSj1GDpqVk62KL0htQiGjsYE/s474/Lou+Fuess.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="474" data-original-width="341" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4CCIGxDVTjgggmiPvbDC05w8QNUVYh3kr0RJ7eRNqKT7v3QiOYBpu_9m27N9eFNSX5GQKzAWop3L_eTiQhLETl0WRajgJNmrEX1_Mn5sH2cT6q5dV2-dOvSj1GDpqVk62KL0htQiGjsYE/s320/Lou+Fuess.jpg" /></a></div><br /><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">My dad was born in October 1943 in Ilion, New York, the second of three sons to my grandparents, Ron and Ellie. Barry (the oldest), Lou, and Phillip (the baby) kept their parents on their toes. Their childhood stories were two parts Norman Rockwell, one part Lord of the Flies. There was the story about the time it snowed 20 feet and they had to tunnel from the house to the barn to get the milking done. A claim that they were paid to catch frogs for a local French restaurant. Family heirlooms that were purported to have been sourced from the town dump. Tales of tapping maple trees with their grandfather. A particularly harrowing narrative about a pitchfork fight. And a cautionary tale about losing one of their dad’s brand new boots in the river. (The only time we ever had any evidence that Grandpa Ron got mad.)</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">Lou attended Pulaski Academy and Central School, in northern New York, from kindergarten through grade 12. (Rumor has it that he had to repeat the 8th grade, which will become relevant shortly.) In school he was outgoing and active in sports, and extracurricular activities. As a high school football player he would run off the football field at halftime, quickly change into his band uniform, perform with the marching band, and then suit up to take the field again. He discovered a love of performing in high school, winning a prize speaking contest for “Carmen” by Andy Griffith, and starring in both “I Remember Mama” and “Where’s Charley.” He had many lifelong friends among his classmates in the class of 1961.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">Being told he was not college material, Lou joined the Air Force immediately after high school. He was trained as a jet aircraft mechanic, and stationed in Mountain Home in 1962. Wherever his plane went, so did Lou. Fortunately, he did not see combat in Vietnam, but he did spend time in Guam, and Alaska - where he experienced the 9.2 magnitude Great Alaskan Earthquake in 1964. He reported home that the runways rolled like waves on the sea, and his bed on the second floor of the barracks ended up in the grass out front. </span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">After Lou’s honorable discharge in 1966 he returned to New York where he worked for the Combined Insurance Company. At the time, he was newly married to Linda Crouch of Boise, but the couple divorced amicably after a few years. It wasn’t long before Lou returned to Idaho, and his brothers and parents followed him west in the years after. </span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">Lou enrolled at Boise Junior College in 1968 and earned his degree in Education in just three years. He graduated with honors, proving that he was, in fact, college material. Lou was a lifelong BSU fan, and loved watching his Broncos play football and basketball. </span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">Lou’s first, and last, teaching job was at East Junior High School, where he taught 7th, 8th, and 9th grade history from 1971 - 2000. Over the years thousands of his students learned that all civilized societies had beer in common, medieval etiquette is a little gross, there are more similarities between the major religions of the world than one might expect, all the lyrics to BIlly Joe’s “We Didn’t Start the Fire,” and much more. He had a special place in his heart for kids who struggled academically, and often joked that he had been teaching 8th grade for so long because of all the trouble he had caused when he was an 8th grader himself.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">The only thing Lou loved more than teaching was coaching. During his EJH career he was both the boys and girls basketball coach, the golf coach, the cross country coach, and eventually the Athletic Director. Lou took hundreds of kids to basketball camps and tournaments around the pacific northwest, where he was widely respected as a mentor and coach. Many of his teams saw success on the court. The net from his 1998 9th grade girls championship basketball game still hangs proudly in his workshop.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">At East Junior High, Lou fell for the Art Teacher, Karen. Karen's young daughter (that's me!) was the icing on the cake. Lou and Karen married in 1978 and made their home in southeast Boise - literally. Over the years Lou’s skills in building and remodeling transformed the little house he bought in 1970 into a beautiful family home. Lou knew every nail, outlet, baseboard, brick, and shingle. He meticulously cared for the yard, riding around on his lawn mower and waving like a celebrity as former students, friends, and neighbors honked as they drove past.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">In 1984, Lou and Karen adopted six year old Alex, from Sao Paulo, Brazil. Lou’s kids were the center of his world, and they both adored their dad. He never missed a game, meet, concert, or play. Coaching Alex in baseball, basketball, and cross country were some of his greatest joys.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">Lou was an avid golfer who spent many of his summers on fairways all over the Treasure Valley, and working in the cart barn at Plantation Golf Course. For many years he maintained Plantation’s golf carts like they were a fleet of luxury automobiles. Lou’s golf buddies and Plantation coworkers were very dear to him. If you were lucky enough to be Lou’s friend, he treated you like family. In his later years, Lou enjoyed playing poker, and the guys he played cards with were brought under his wing. He loved being around all kinds of people.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">Lou’s second greatest accomplishment was being the World’s Greatest Grandpa. (His first greatest accomplishment was the restoration of his 1956 Chevy.) His grandchildren brought him so much joy. He loved to watch them compete in sports, he encouraged their creative endeavors, and he loved to talk with them about school, friends, and everything important in their lives. He made them laugh. He made them think. He challenged them to be the best versions of themselves in their classrooms, on their teams, and in all their relationships.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: Raleway;"><br /></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: Raleway;">Lou’s parents and brothers - Ronald, Eleonor, Barry, and Philip, and enough of his golf buddies to make a formidable foursome, were already waiting for him at the 19th hole in the clouds. Down here on earth, Lou’s wife Karen, his daughter Katie and Son-In-Law Jake, his son Alex, and his grandchildren Tremar, Lauren, Sofia, William, and Darren are missing his mischievous blue eyes, and infectious laugh. We know that the sadness we feel is because we loved someone worth missing. If you knew Lou, especially if you were a student or player of his, we would love for you to share a happy story. If you would like to honor him, our family requests that you consider a donation to the Boise Public Schools Foundation. </span></span></p><div><span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div></span>Cloverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17910275652273858169noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2487894698721282074.post-5124059606799391612017-10-16T22:56:00.002-07:002017-10-16T22:56:50.606-07:00That one time you wanted to post something cool that you made to your blog, but you couldn't remember the URL, or the password, or the security questions...<br />
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<br />Cloverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17910275652273858169noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2487894698721282074.post-14520816968244143782016-09-14T09:39:00.002-07:002016-09-14T09:39:18.052-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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<br />Cloverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17910275652273858169noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2487894698721282074.post-53231075423003718902016-09-02T13:15:00.004-07:002016-09-02T13:15:50.944-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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Cloverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17910275652273858169noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2487894698721282074.post-64157353012985677882016-08-22T10:15:00.000-07:002016-08-23T10:21:10.281-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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I just got back from a conference in Boston. What an amazing city! Boston you stole my heart. <br />
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This week was the first time in a really long time that I was relatively anonymous. Other than my two coworkers who traveled with me, no one knew my story. No one felt sorry for me. It was pretty freeing. <br /><br />I met this really cute guy there who flirted shamelessly with me. I flirted back a little, because why not? It was weird. Really, REALLY weird. But it was also good. I think more than anything it was a reminder men are going to be interested in me, and one of these days I'm going to be interested right back. I really think I had convinced myself that I would never feel attractive or attracted again. I was ready to order the Crazy Cat Lady starter pack. <br />
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Anyway. Thank you Boston. I think you helped me find my mojo.<br />
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 14.666666666666666px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I’ve been blogging for a long time. I started <a href="http://www.theworldaccordingtoclover.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">Clover</a> ten years ago actually. That was before blogs were cool, and also after they weren’t that cool anymore. (I blame Facebook/Twitter and our inability to generate new ideas or read more than 140 characters without getting totally bored and overwhelmed.)</span></div>
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Cloverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17910275652273858169noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2487894698721282074.post-41570565233532164182016-06-02T22:01:00.003-07:002016-06-02T22:01:40.572-07:00This is my comeback story. I hope it's a good one. Cloverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17910275652273858169noreply@blogger.com0